Monday, January 9, 2012

Story: Who am I...? (Update Part 2!)



[Sad]

Author: Connor the Brony
Description: A pony is the collection of her experiences. But what if all of those experiences never occurred? As Pinkie’s reality falls apart and gives way to a much less party-filled world; she will have to ask herself: who was I, who am I, and who should I be?

Who am I...? (New Part 2!)

Additional Tags: Realization, family, friends, identity crisis, not Cupcakes

103 comments:

Bombedrumbum said...

Tags: not Cupcakes

good to hear

ombutescentdin said...

Nuuu not more sad pinky :(

professional brony said...

am i the only one who got into fanfic from cupcakes?

BigMacintosh said...

I don't really like Pinky Pie stories that involve party of one pinky.

WizardShy said...

@ombutescentdin PINKIE. PINKIE. PINKIE. GAAAAAAAHHH!! *jumps out window*

Serafin said...

Why allways with the sads. No want sads.

Octavia said...

Not Cupcakes. lol That's the first thing that came to mind when I saw the image and read the description of course. Something grimdark-ish.

Overkill said...

Psycho Pinkamena > Sad Pinkamena.

But I'll probably read this later.

ombutescentdin said...

@WizardShy D:

Why, why would you do that?

Bombedrumbum said...

@WizardShy haven't seen you in a while!! How's life been?

@ombutescentdin here ya go! :)

Well, this is an Interesting read so far. I'll save it for later.

Victory Star said...

Sad pinkie is sad =
Sad brony is sad TT.TT
WHY ARE YOU SO SAD PINKIE!

Sirnerdy said...

I find it funny that not cupcakes is a tag for Pinkie Pie stories. Not a bad read. Now I just need to remember it when it updates lol

Kyso said...

I don't like the "it was all a dream" or "it was all hallucinated" story lines, at all, in any form. I shan't read this. In my head, Pinkie will stay happy and her life will remain filled with parties until the end of time.

That is all.

CityFlyer502 said...

This has gotta be one of the most interesting Pinkie stories I've come across. I really can't say much without spoiling the story, but the description pretty much sums up the first part. This really seems like the setup to a great fanfic.

Blackbelt said...

I don't like where this story is headed, but I wanna keep reading anyway.

ombutescentdin said...

@Bombedrumbum

I could watch this GIF all day! And I just might!

Victory Star said...

I was wrong. o~o
I guess sad pinkie=
Mildly impressed brony.

CityFlyer502 said...

@professional brony Cupcakes wasn't my first. "Newsworthy" was my first fanfic, mostly because it was one of the stories posted the very first day I came here. And like they say, the rest is history. Been reading fanfics ever since :D

Scout said...

Holy shit! Connor got his fic on EqD. Know Your Meme Bronies represent.

also, @the people above me
ლ(ಠ益ಠლ Y U NO like sad Pinkamina!

Something To Quack About said...

@Kyso

So you felt the need to inform everyone that you, personally, will not read this story because you, personally, don't like the premise because you, personally, are enough of a retard to believe that certain ideas can never be worthwhile or written well.

What a self-absorbed, egotistical, stupid little douche...

Bombedrumbum said...

@Scout funny you should say that. At first, I thought that it was just "Connor", the three-for-three six-star fanfic writer. Author of "On a Cross and Arrow".

Bombedrumbum said...

@Something to Quack About

Two words:

Love



and





Tolerate.

Something To Quack About said...

@BigMacintosh

So who's forcing you to read it or comment on it? It isn't all about YOU. The world revolves around the SUN. You're just some nothing who'll die the same as any of us. So stop acting like it all has to be tailor-made to YOUR specifications, that YOU need to be HEARD at ALL TIMES.

Kaijyuu said...

The "not cupcakes" tag made me chuckle, then feel disgusted that anything revolving around sad Pinkie needs that distinction.

Victory Star said...

Wow you're a real downer huh? O,0

CityFlyer502 said...

@Something To Quack About If someone doesn't want to read this, that's perfectly fine. It's not wrong to express it. What's wrong is to bash that persons reason for not wanting to read it. Disagree if you'd like, but don't be a jerk about it.

BigMacintosh said...

@Something To Quack About
Ok, Christ dude its a freaking comment calm down.
If I came off as an asshole then... well... you don't have to be such a dick about it.

CityFlyer502 said...

@Kaijyuu Probably just some insurance.

Victory Star said...

Quakers up there. You have a bad day dude?... wanna talk about it? :3

Bombedrumbum said...

@Something to Quack About


You have a problem with people expressing their opinion? Well, isn't that what this whole thing is about? HERE'S SOMETHING FOR YA TO QUACK ABOUT!!

TheManWithTwoNames said...

So far, this looks to be wonderfully miserable and heart-wrenchingly tragic. I'm going to love keeping up with this and trying to hold onto hope for Pinkie! I can't wait!

CityFlyer502 said...

@TheManWithTwoNames Hey, this is Pinkie we're talking about. One way or another, I think she's gonna have it all figured out. And if not, well, that's just how the story was set up.

BigMacintosh said...

oooohhh that guy being a dick inspired me to try a fic that I usually wouldn't like and I'm not even halfway in and I like it. So.... thanks quack guy.

Bombedrumbum said...

Can't tell if trolling, or just very stupid.......

Nightmare Moon said...

I love that one of the tags is Not Cupcakes.

ombutescentdin said...

Everyone is saying the fic is good... *sigh* better find a good place to cry.

CityFlyer502 said...

@Bombedrumbum I'd chalk it up to probably having a bad day. I'm sure some of us have come here on bad days and posted stuff we normally wouldn't say. And if it's trolling, well what can we do. Like a famous song says, 'Let It Be.'

@ombutescentdin I wouldn't consider it a 'crying your eyes out' kind of sad. It's sad in the sense that everything she thought she knew isn't real. Kind of a freaky thing to deal with when you think about it.

Sirnerdy said...

@ombutescentdin
At least it's not cupcakes :)

Eric said...

lol not cupcakes tag.

thinking about giving this a read. hmm...

ombutescentdin said...

@CityFlyer502

Well all right, in that case I start reading it now.

Connor said...

I actually added "not Cupcakes" as an afterthought.
I'm glad you all (most of you all, anyway) like it.
I was my first time trying to write at all (except for a horrible Yu-Gi-Oh! fanfic I wrote in 4th grade).
Be warned, I work very slowly. The next chapter probably won't be out for another month at least.

Bombedrumbum said...

@CityFlyer502 look at the most recent comments. I was insensitively blunt to a friend, which I very much regret now.

BigMacintosh said...

Wow I just finished it and it is a very good setup for being very sad. I can't wait for the next update. If you like sad this is for you.

Bombedrumbum said...

@Connor

I've been working on one chapter for five months, and all i've written is maybe one paragraph

Kyso said...

I reread my comment and, yeah, I can see how it might have stirred a bit of a response. I didn't mean it that way. I'm sorry if it seemed like I was trying to imply that no one should read or write this kind of story. So, to that end...

If the author reads this comment, I would like to say that I hope you enjoy writing your story, that you find the audience you're looking for, and that you grow as a writer. I'm sorry that I won't be part of that audience, it's just that I don't handle sadness very well... I'm kinda weak that way.

Connor the Brony said...

Whoops... Wrong Account:

I actually added "not Cupcakes" as an afterthought.
I'm glad you all (most of you all, anyway) like it.
I was my first time trying to write at all (except for a horrible Yu-Gi-Oh! fanfic I wrote in 4th grade).
Be warned, I work very slowly. The next chapter probably won't be out for another month at least.

Victory Star said...

I like it a lot, hope there's more soon! XD

Sirnerdy said...

@Eric
You should. It's a good story even though I for one am not into the sad fanfics.

thatwyomingpony said...

sounds like a good solid concepet.

Bombedrumbum said...

Well, this is the second best sad foc that i've ever read.


Sorry Connor, but Final Dream of a Filly takes the place for number one in my book

Victory Star said...

@connor
So are we talking a month? Or... what? O.0

ombutescentdin said...

@Connor the Brony

Lol, at least you have the talent to write on of these. How fast you do it, in my mind is irrelevant :D

Connor the Brony said...

Disregard comment comment made by my other account, I tried to delete it but oh god how this get here i not good with computer...

@Victory Star
Yeah, this chapter took about 2 months to get honed to "perfection." I do have some good ideas for the next chapter though. It will be a good mindbuck. Dunno. Have to balance real life with this, but I'll try to get it written in a timely manner.

CityFlyer502 said...

@Connor the Brony I'm definitely enjoying it. You've got the makings of a great fanfic here. Really looking forward to the next installments.

Victory Star said...

@Connor the brony
Then i shall wait as patiently as life sees fit! O,0

CityFlyer502 said...

@Bombedrumbum Why'd you have to bring that fanfic up?! I only look at the title and I start crying...I guess that means it was a good fanfic. But this one definitely has the potential to displace it.

mycutiemarkisagun said...

Awesome concept. Serious Mental Illness Pinkie is Best Pony. This will be the saddest EQD fic since that TwiDash shipfic where Dash dies of AIDS at the end.

Tundra said...

Not sure if I want. :(

Kyso said...

@Bombedrumbum

That fic is the reason that I can't handle sad fics anymore.

PWNY Fluttershy said...

why she always sad? shes the element of joy or something. (i forgot) come on!

Victory Star said...

@mycutiemarkisagun

Does such a thing really exist?O.0
But... why?
TT,TT

Connor the Brony said...

@Bombedrumbum
Yes, now that is a real sadfic. I gave this one [sad] because it obviously wasn't [normal] or anything else and it didn't really fit [slice of life] either.
It might also get some more tags as I discover the story line (not grimdark though, I want to steer clear of Cupcakes territory).

@CityFlyer502
I have a lot of subplots and intricate details of world in mind that I hope will make it interesting. I'm also looking for an artist that has some time to make some concept art, if they ;take commissions, of course.

@Victory Star
Onward! The new territory of Twilight's Library awaits! (I have a feeling that everyone will either love or absolutely hate what I'm going to do in the next chapter. ((Not shipping BTW!)))

CityFlyer502 said...

@mycutiemarkisagun If you're talking about "Decay," was that really what killed Rainbow in the end? I thought it was some kind of weirdo exotic disease.

LastOfLancas said...

@CityFlyer502

It definitely had fever element, but the disease itself was unnamed IIRC.

Good story so far. Can't give any stars yet til maybe two or three chapters.

Victory Star said...

@ well i'm pretty sure itll be awesome. I can tell your a great writer.O,0
Besides even if it wasn't i'd keep reading it anyway cuzy ou were nice enough to respond to my comment l,l! !!

ombutescentdin said...

@Connor the Brony

That's quite the story you have written there! You made it feel as if I got punched in the heart. But that's a good thing! I really love where this is going, and will wait patiently for the next chapter!

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PurplePony said...

Gah... Now I feel bad about myself for working on a Pinkie Pie grimdark (no, Pinkie is NOT a rampaging sociopathic murderer in my grimdark).

LastOfLancas said...

@Victory Star

Uh, what exactly? If you were talking about the fic, it's called "Decay", but I don't think she dies from AIDS though.

Anyway, do I smell Scootabuse in this fic? D:

rbwhiffet said...

Huh. On the one hoof, it looks like a typical "everything was just a dream" fic. On the other hoof, if Pinkie was just imagining things, then how did she know about Twilight?

I'm intrigued.

PurplePony said...

@Connor the Brony Don't worry about how fast you work. It was a great fan-fic and that's what counts. Plus, I don't think your five weeks behind on calculus... sigh... maybe I'll work on that tomorrow, time to draw ponies.

Melodia said...

Ok let's see...

First off, man this got a lot of comments for such a short time. And people always bitch about how they hate sadfics too...

Not a fan usually myself, but the description made me think I'd want to read it. So far, I wonder. It almost seems, to me, that Pinkie somehow dimension hopped and ended up in a different version of Pinkie who had been in a coma for many years. That's in fact the exact premise of at least two or three fanfics I've read before.

....unless there's some other explanation of how Pinkie actually knows everything about Ponyville. I do wonder about the whole lack of Eternal Night thing, though.

CityFlyer502 said...

@Connor the Brony Whatever you're working on, I can already tell it's gonna be awesome. Don't worry about how quickly it comes out. We'll be waiting (relatively) patiently. It's a shame my drawing skills are horrendously rusty, so the best I can offer is my support. Keep it up!

Batty Gloom said...

Color me interested. It definitely has Pinkie's character down right and an interesting premise. I'm going to keep my eye on this little fic; I think it has real potential.

mycutiemarkisagun said...

@CityFlyer502

lol yea, they never *said* it was AIDS in the story, but I thought it was really really funny to pretend that it was (♫EVERYPONY HAS AIDS!♫), especially considering that there is a IRL equine equivalent to the HIV virus. And really, damn near every fictional "weirdo exotic disease" invented in the past 30 years is influenced by the AIDS epidemic in some fashion.

DPV111 said...

@mycutiemarkisagun

Heh. People write some messed up stuff, eh?
Eh... Nah. I still consider Somewhere Only We Know to be the saddest fic on EqD. And Our Last Goodbye to be the saddest fic off EqD.

And as always, I don't read sad for the sake of sad. If there's no cool adventure or shit to go along with it I shall resign myself to sit back and mock your tears.

CityFlyer502 said...

@mycutiemarkisagun AIDS never crossed my mind when I first read 'Decay' and it still doesn't add up now. Hmm. Now you've unwittingly given my mind something to chew on for the next few hours.

Connor the Brony said...

@LastOfLancas
Nope. Not one single line of Scootabuse will exist in this story. I tried to make that apparent with RD bringing Scoots to the hospital. But Scootaloo will appear again. Every reference has a reason.

Pinkie's knowing of Equestria as it almost is will be a major theme. I'm going to milk the "same but different" trope of alternate-universe for all it's worth.

@Melodia
I haven't exactly figured out all details (especially that one), but it probably won't be that. It would be too sad to leave Pinkie stranded in this universe knowing that the other universe still exists. I also am not a great lover of dimension-hopping fics (even though I loved 'On a Cross and Arrow'), it just makes magic seem too powerful if they can cross dimensions.


Now back to rewriting Equestria's history! (jk)

Bombedrumbum said...

This fic






Has potential

DPV111 said...

@Connor the Brony

Oh? It's an alternate reality mind or body swap fic? I think I actually WILL read this now.

Kyso said...

@Connor the Brony

Wait... so you're saying that this might not be a permanently sad fic? From what I saw in the description and what I will admit that I skimmed of the fic, it was shaping up to stab me right in the heart.

Color me interested. I can handle sadness in small doses. If things get wrapped up in a way that's not abysmal, even I might be able to handle this.

I'd like to formally apologize for dismissing your fic. I'm sorry. I will keep track of this one, but I can't promise I'll read the whole thing. I'll do my best.

Steel Resolve said...

yeah, sad fics with a resolution are not just bearable, sometimes they are truly wonderful.

PurplePony said...

@Kyso

I kind of like the fics that stab one in the heart :)

Drackolus said...

I, for one, am hooked.

Connor the Brony said...

Yeah, I'm planning on having a happy ending (even though I have no idea what it will be), I also get more away from plain sad and do world building in later chapters. Dunno, all of us (including me) will just have to wait and see where it takes us.

DPV111 said...

I actually enjoy a reasonable ammount of sad in the stories I read.
A lot of the background themes in FiM are actually qite sad when you think about it. Everything surrounding Luna, the fact the Princesses and Spike will outlive the Mane 6, any plausible backstory for Trixie, Gilda and Dash's friendship falling apart, any plausible explanation for the Diamond Dogs activities, the likely explanation for the Apple parents absence, the fact that all of the Mane 6 have some sort of more serious than average psychological problem plus personality flaw, the entire Gala episode, Spike's forever to be unrequieted interspecies crush, and more.
Yet with all these sad undertones the show remains upbeat, uplifting, entertaining, varied, and inventive.
That's why I like some sad but don't appreciate pure SadFics.

Sunset Sprinkles said...

@professional brony

I did. I'm actually writing a sequal to the sequal. Almost done, too. Don't think I'm a bad pony for writing it! I'm really nice, I swear. T-T

Sunset Sprinkles said...

Oh no...I'm totally going to read this...

Mattisabrony said...

Did anypony notice that the pic is drawn by the exact same person that runs askprincessmolestia's tumblr? Look at the signature on the bottom right of the pic. Observant brony is observant

banjo2E said...

Hey Connor

Pinkie and Pinkamena accidentally swapped universes

DO IT

Jahavad said...

NO my name is Connor, and I am a brony, wtf is this shit????

shagbark said...

If Joss Whedon wrote My Little Pony...

Connor the Brony said...

@Mattisabrony
Yeah, John Joseco. He's a good artist and I thought this piece captured the feeling I was trying to capture.

@banjo2E
Mmm... Nah. I have my own ideas of what I'm going to do. It should be enough to make your brain explode, though.

@Jahvad
lolwat

@shagbark
What are you >implying...?

DPV111 said...

This is a good story. Let's hope you can take it in an original direction.

FlutterWhimsy said...

I'm looking for a well written Pinkie fic....but all of them seem to be sad. Pinkie Pie is my antidepressant. I'm afraid to read this....but still curious....

Melodia said...

Well at least it answers the Eternal Night question.

This doesn't seem it should be made up as it goes along though....but what can you do...

DPV111 said...

The new chapter was great, now looks less like alternate dimensions than conflicting timelines.

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